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16 Ounces
01:07
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16 ounces
to bolster Br. Ass
preparing to
journey with
those who
have gone before
the Militant with
the Triumphant
for the Suffering
in friendship
being perfected
so I find myself
this forgotten evening
after six weeks
of opposition
& stress sweat
purging a
measure of mercy
enough to stand
in the face of
a rare case
like the other
without the
full body slamming
against the
unmovable institution
by which
I am employed
I, the resettled Quaker
being balanced
without consent
between peace
& necessity
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when I was
a little boy
voiceless & pale
I dreamt most nights
that I could fly
off of chairs
out of windows
no Superman cape
or rocket pack
just me & my
boy arms flapping
over oak limbs
& power lines
all around Fairmount Heights
I flew
above the rooftops
of houses I knew
where people
I wanted to like me slept
real places
with real people
not fairytale castles
built & rebuilt
by poor bumbling
Giant John
did I?
sometimes still
I wonder
I mean, was it more
than my wounded soul’s
attempt to escape
the world of
never good enough
& afraid of everything?
or did I
know something
that got lost in
the memory shuffle
into adulthood?
even now
my beard
well beyond gray
as I lay me down
I pray the Lord
Come fly with me!
and then
with a little boy smile
I give myself once again
to the winds
that blow
only in my dreams
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3. |
Back Path
01:25
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down the monk’s
pack path
to the tap house
the wayside grotto of
Our Lady of Grace
though eroding
still planted
on the Serpent’s head
bolstered by
a holy trippel
liquid grace
for the pilgrim
suffering in
the school of fiat
blistered feet
limp lighter
into the faltering town
hunting for duct tape
a thin layer of hope
for the journey home
drawn by
Umqua flashing
closed sign spotted
as I shift to cross
from somewhere behind
sudden grace chimes
the melody all children know
gangly preteens
peddling ice cream
& oversized bicycles
Cookie dipped, I order
both their hands out
to receive twice the price
& I, twice the grace
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4. |
Ever Incomplete
01:07
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what is this hole?
local history bulldozed
a brick wall at a time
down to the pillars
a pothole
bottom filled
with oil slicked
New Year rain
tripping in the half light
over fissures
buckled sidewalk blocks
pushed up by restless roots
my soul
not quite whole
staring witless into
the crevice left by
her whispered passing
the holidays
holy always
but now a celebration
ever incomplete
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5. |
Halos & Bones
01:12
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rock ’n roll hair
& purple Chucks
that’s how
I got things done
when I was handsome
now it’s the beard
I call it
the kindly old
gentleman factor
it’s a perception
to which
I gladly conform
fist bumps
man shakes
& grooming questions
Have you ever?
Will you?
it’s not what they think
for me
a holy habit
for them
a sign
directing the restless
from in between
halos and bones
to perfect union
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6. |
Solemnity Cake
01:54
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California Rain
topping the playlist
poetry ambling over
banjo & synth
unlikely hymnody for
the first Sunday in Advent
popping semisweet
chocolate chips
simulating joy mislaid
in the midst of
this sifting season
endless unpacking
one last boxful of
paper framed portraits
signed With Love to Joey
& prayers for the bachelor son
filling several green spirals
my childhood stocking
jingles hanging
on a door even older
one dimensional angels
posed as though proclaiming
with the heavenly host
Peace on earth
good will toward men!
this man
a boy again
before the need to worry
before Mother’s journal entries
& the crocheted baby blanket
never to be delivered
the chalkware saint
perched atop
the bookend woodblock
keeps watch over
my lost cause
wreath & candles
reused & reversed
saving five
for a half slice
of solemnity cake
in a marked clamshell
waiting on Jerry Frank’s
otherwise highbrow
dessert shop countertop
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7. |
The Litany of Disasters
03:09
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2020
the worst year ever
Paul’s email began
Yet another
family member dead
please pray
& we can
we all know
the litany of disasters
before the virus
there was the president
making America great again
some still claim
already divided
the virus gave us
physical distancing
& masks
as a political statement
on one side
the spectrum of skin tones
masked &
uniformed black
if not for the boy
in the pink ruffled tutu
chalk art names & slogans
on the sidewalk
beneath the gold man
under whose watch
they take their stand
chanting the now familiar
Black - lives - matter!
on the other?
monocultural &
mostly maskless
decked out In
the colors of Old Glory
which waves above
once complacent
blue eyed faces
suddenly awake & angry
shouting back
as if at a pep rally
All - lives - matter!
not content with
God’s own footstool
the wildfires push westward
red hot tongues licking at
the evergreen valley
staining the autumn blue sky
lethal orange
sender sleet burns
our ever upturned eyes
as COVID looks on & chuckles
Fly on home Chicken Little
strap that mask back on your face & shelter in place
14 more days of the same
this endless joke
played & replayed
on us again & again
my thinning skin
worn down to the cynical bone
I unmask & join in
What next? I ask
my mustache hiding a grin
Tsunami! someone guesses
Flood! an easy take
Zombies! I say
setting up my punchline
It’s the election
whoever wins
then silence
broken by my wrap up
& after November?
will we the people
bend our backs
to the task of forming
a more perfect union
or take to the streets
& tweets
adding yet one more stanza
to this already brutally long
litany of disasters?
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8. |
To Honor a Promise
01:08
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Cash hidden
beneath my
vespers ready
button down
piety over grit
the way of the
creative soul
pining for
the eternal
inclined toward
the beautiful now
recalling crosses
on the backroads
I, the celibate
he, the young betrothed
return to abbey hill
to honor a promise
Dark Night in hand
brewed for the day
we two salute
our shared prayer
made public
Salud! I say
Cheers! overlaid
while from the hilltop
prayer bells
beckon in vain
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9. |
What a Virus Does
02:08
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Hey! don’t you know
that I’m thirsty
he cried
arms wide
to an all but
empty street
with me
the lone pedestrian
unable to see past
my lack
I smile my regrets
& walk on
the word of God
open in my
glove warmed hands
this is
what a virus does
it steals my rhythm
then shouts out
the Savior’s
5th last words
from the cross
I thirst!
& I walk on
& on
no smiles
no words
mine or anyone else’s
only vacant shops
with apologies posted
& promises
to come again
at the end of the age
this age of saving lives
via isolation
Ha! I reply
I’m never alone!
until that night
I awoke
with cancer in my dreams
& stayed awake
keeping company
with all the angst
once brushed aside
Ha! no joy
in that puff
from my presumably
healthy lungs
I laugh at the fool
who dropped his keys
in the most unlikely place
my screaming green
REI rosary bag
the keeper of my prayers
reader of my soul
string mouth open
Ha! it mocks
my flim-flam shelter
made up of
bootstraps & passcodes
& I cry
I cry with the others
O Father, Mother
you holy souls
all who suffer
I thirst!
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10. |
Where the People March
02:04
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I’d like to go
where the people march
& chant those
last gasp words
I - can’t - breathe
like the 4th of July
at Waterfront Park
the sirens blare
the tear gas bombs
burst in air
as I pray Compline
& prepare for bed
don’t black lives matter?
I’ve cared for more than a few
I recall
the morning I was late
when Marla exclaimed
Sherman’s on CP time!
& they all laughed
am I?
when I pray for peace
then justice only as
a guilty afterthought
& what about the rest?
will they take
their day in the streets?
the Chinatown merchants
their shops burned down
in the name of health & morals
& those still enslaved
doing the work
that Americans won’t
then, almost forgotten
the mother of all
acts of American oppression
the indigenous
systematically erased
from our collective social memory
even the angry white kids
swarm without aim
around this righteous flame
maybe I should go
& keep on going
all the way back
through England
to Germany
where I’d still be white
but not quite as privileged
an immigrant
marked as other
not by color
but by my papers & speech
& so join my voice
with those who cry out
How long?
Lord, how long?
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12. |
Horizon (Instrumental)
01:26
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Sherman Salem, Oregon
Sherman is a pilgrim, poet, artist & street musician. His creative works are his prayers, conceived in solitude & prayed
publicly. His poetry is featured in Mount Angel Pilgrim, an award winning short film by Coleman Weimer that documents Sherman’s 2019 pilgrimage to Queen of Angels Monastery in Mount Angel, Oregon.
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